The break down

I'm gonna break down the past week for you in bullet points then I'm going to try and explain in short, here we go.

-Work
-Internship at Signature Mag
-Parental Backlash
-Boyshit and Singledomination
-Film
-Long dick of the Law
-Aches and Pains


WORK- nothing new its retail land, its long, boring, unrewarding, and slavery for just above minimum wage. This is what I'm doing to make that dolla cause aint no way I can start charging to make anyone holla in this economy.

INTERN- I wish I could say I was completely jazzed on it, I'm not. I am the bottom link, the intern's intern, the bitch. No, I am not exaggerating kids. I work 3 days unpaid 8+ hrs per day. I worked an art walk we hosted on Thurday night. Play by play;
1. Out if the house by 8
2. In Sun ass Valley by 915
3. I'm early for the pick up
(Getting linens for the event)
4. Drive for breakfast
5. Driving back to linen place
6. Get a ticket "speeding"
(This is where I'm slapped by the long dick of the law)
7. Drive downtown into the office
8. Send some emails
9. Do drop offs (personally deliver copies of the latest issue to publicists and such)
10. Visually raped by dirty men at Home Depot on sunset getting tape for sexy publisher boss.
11.Get to event and do trash duty from 6 to 11:30 on a 4 story bulding WALK up nonetheless and only the 1st story trash chute is unlocked!
12. Get hit on by underfed artsy boys
13. Drive home and die
Only to get back up and head to the office again at 8a.m.
And do drop offs with Emily the intern from 1130 to 5p.m. All over the city...I did see Steve Spielberg on Melrose by one of the drop offs just filming,hanging out. Had Jim from the office say 'Hey' to me on the way back down a flight of stairs, so cute I died.

P.B.- My step dad is not on board with me interning, Mom is as supportive as she can try to be. Sucks but I will WIN!

FILM- gonna start filming more of my little L.A. Life with some help from my friend Ash, also gonna try to get comp working so I can post pics. Gonna take more photos too.
Need to make time for photoshoot, gonna try that tomorrow!

Boyshit/Singledomination- I got screwed over by a boy not gonna lie it sucked he sucks its a suck fest, I'll move on. However I had miss Maggies help nursing my ego with an entire Saturday spent drunk in bed with girlie movies and snacks, then coffee with Ash and an eye opener about said boy. Whatever, all for a reasons, I will WIN.

A's and P's- my legs hurt from Thursdays event on the stairs I think I pulled something in my left leg, sad days dude I am falling apart.

I don't know what I'm doing but at least I'm moving in some direction, this internship may be costing me $$ but its gotta be getting me somewhere I'm not there for nothing. I get so anxious sometimes, I want to be somebody and I'm trying I really am working the ladder from the ground up. I have no where to go but up, I don't know where I'm going but its not down. Gonna try more and more to get on with making life fucking happen.
The Dolls
Picture stories
Filming
Interning
Work
Exhaustion

This is all for something, I'm gonna be straight with you I feel defeated and driven at the same time its impossible but its a battle that is currently my life, and guess what I WILL WIN.
I am going to be somebody that I would respect and admire.

I really am fucking the rest and doing what I want even if at the end of the day still feel lost, I'm moving in a forward motion.

Remember this, I WILL WIN.


Also please listen to Little Joy they are a sweet little band they hail from NY but live locally here in LA around echo park.

Saw 'Whip It' tonight with my friend Jessica who works retail with me,it was a really good movie, go see it.