so im not one to share my feelings with the world, let alone my friends, let alone anyone who reads this blog. and by the way, leave your marks on the page, comment! thanks.
anyway i have this boyfriend and his name is tim and hes from minnesota. he is very midwestern...what does what mean exactly?
that would be a cow barn and that is tim when he thought it was a good idea to be inside the cow barn...with a beer...
weve been together for almost two years which is really scary and really cool at the same time, i guess. as you can probably guess we are engaged in a long distance relationship which is the hardest thing in the entire world to do especially when you are only 21 years old. he honestly, and obviously is my first love and like any girl in my place can never imagine what the future will hold without said person in their life. we just had a talk about what is going to happen when i move back home considering i have to look for a job and all that fun stuff. the conclusion is to just wait and see what is going to happen and the other side is doing the obvious...take some time off from each other and if we are meant to be than the universe will bring us together and if not, then that's what is meant to be. i am a very strong believer in letting what is meant to happen, happen and not force anything.
the thought of not being with him is the scariest thing ive ever had to think about. i didnt want to be this girl...ever. i thought i was above all of the feelings of love and etc etc etc whatever. i think that might also have to be in part of me being obese in high school and boys thinking i was gross. either or.
our relationship has been a crazy one, rocky, amazing, and should have probably been taped this entire time to be a reality show because it was so full of drama, who doesnt love some drama? maybe the end is what will be exposed to everyone...mayve its not ending.
just two photos to laugh at...
what is the answer to all of this?
no point to the blog just thinking...
-smit NYC
Smittle this warmed my heart I had to comment.
ReplyDeleteJust remember what the psychic said :)
-p.mo